Friendship

My opinion on friendship has changed over the course of my high school career.  I used to think that the more friends you had, the more cool and happy you would be.  I have found out through experience that this is not true.  I have four extremely close friend that I have close with for the majority of my life.  Everyone else I have come across paths with, either created drama with me or didn’t affect my life in any positive way.  That said, my perspective of people has changed.  I am friendly with most people, but try not to expect the best out of them so when or if they hurt me, I won’t be as disappointed.  

My perspective on people is kind of confusing.  I try not to judge people, but when I see people negative actions, I will remember them.  I try to remember the things that they have done so i can protect myself to stay safe.  For example, I had a friend that talked to my other friends boyfriend.  She was shady.  Because of her actions I was aware and did not trust her alone with my boyfriend.  Same thing goes with people that talk behind peoples back.  If someone is talking badly about someone else to me, then I begin to think that maybe they are talking badly about me to other people!  Trust is a big issue for me. Because I trust so few people, this makes me very close with the people that I actually trust.  My friendships are wonderful and mean the world to me.  I am not an anti-social person.  I am extremely friendly, I just have learned from experience not to always trust people with your secrets.  After my perspective changed, I noticed that I began to separate myself from the “popular crowd” and every since then my life has mostly been drama free. :)